I feel like i have opened Pandora’s Box. And it was a big mistake. Mentally drained to the point of exhaustion. I miss my life being simple as shit. No complications. No drama. But i suppose one day ill have to grow up and have shit roll my way.
Oh sleep, what happened to us? We used to be such good friends. Now i just dont feel like i have the time for you, nor the ability to fully appreciate you. So id like to say, im sorry. Maybe one day well meet again. Until then ill just have to stick with my replacement friend, insomnia.
“No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice.”—
Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk (via iamjenye)